My Weight Loss Journey

My weight loss journey has had its share of ups and downs. As a kid and teen, I was a skinny kid who could eat whatever I wanted…and did! As I got older, my weight began to creep up. Completely unsure of what a healthy diet even was due to my previous ability to eat whatever I wanted, I struggled for years, trying every diet on earth. I’ve done Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, Medifast, vegetarian, Dukan Diet, South Beach, all sorts of fad diets. If it was a diet, I’ve probably done it! I would lose some weight on ALL of those diets but would eventually give up and/or gain the weight back. I never could fully commit to a diet.

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It figures that the one diet that worked for me and got me to goal was a scam! I did a diet, which will remain unnamed, but was featured in Woman’s World. Desperate for results, I tried it and it worked really well. I reached my first goal of 150 pounds, losing 30 pounds in 2 months.

Me at 150 pounds

Me at 150 pounds

It was an extreme form of low fat, low carb and the weight flew off. I got to goal in about 5 months, going from 179 pounds to 125 pounds. I was a success story on the site.

Then, it came out that the woman running the diet had faked her success pictures. She was really an obese woman and many of her success story photos from people who had supposedly done the diet and even her own “success” photo had been taken from Russian bride sites.

Me at goal the first time

Me at goal the first time

Let me tell you, that was a mindf*ck to have become a success story on a site that had faked its success stories. Even worse, when bloggers who did the diet, including myself, warned people not to do the diet because the woman was a fraud - she sued us! The case against all of us was eventually thrown out and a class action suit against her won in court, but it sort of messed me up for awhile. The only way I knew how to lose weight was from a dangerous, fake diet where I had often eaten only 600 to 800 calories a day.

Me at 125 Pounds as a “success Story”

Me at 125 Pounds as a “success Story”

It’s taken a lot of unlearning the “bad” stuff and learning a better, safer, more doable way of eating while at the same time, getting comfortable with my body no matter the size. I think mentally, I’m in a much healthier frame of mind where the number on the scale is just a number and not who I am as a person.

More recently, I found myself at my heaviest weight ever after my mother died in early January 2017 after suffering a stroke over the holidays in December 2016. I spent the first part of the year struggling with anxiety and panic attacks and was completely spent from what I’d gone through in the three weeks she was hospitalized. My health suffered. I experienced aura migraines. I was afraid to go to the store or drive or even be alone. I spent the second half of the year recovering from that and thanks to acupuncture, my anxiety and panic attacks eased, my migraines disappeared, and I finally felt like myself again. I let myself just live for awhile. I ate what I wanted and went easier on myself. At my highest weight, I was 210. This picture was the literal kick in the ass I needed to start doing keto:

I managed to lose about 5 pounds initially just watching what I ate and now am working on getting the rest of it off using keto. Keto has really helped me find something I’m comfortable doing that doesn’t feel like dieting, but still gets results. My initial goal is 150 pounds with an end goal of 135 pounds. I’ve done it before and I know I can do it again. I’ll update this page with progress pictures as I get to my goal. 2019 will be the year!

Me now around 186 pounds

Me now around 186 pounds

To be continued…